The Power of Coffee

I just went to a local coffee house to get an iced white mocha with soy. As I was ordering, I was pondering if I really wanted it iced because my office is cold, maybe I should get it warm, and then I figured, I would have my iced white mocha with soy, but without ice. The lady looked at me weird that I didn't want ice in my milk... when has it ever been okay to put ice in your milk? Okay, for coffee drinks it makes sense, but it's weird that it's even okay.

As I was walking around the coffee house while my drink was being made, I saw a little seating area with tons of books. I don't understand how a coffee house brings out the intellectual in you. What is it about a caffeine drink, that's supposed to energize you, keep you so mellow as to sit in a chair and become intellectual.

I just find it interesting that no one likes to go to school, concentrate on courses, studies, etc, but put it in a coffee house and bam, it works.

Bitter, I know, but it just doesn't make sense that Coffee can have such power and play such an integral part in unlocking who we are as individuals.

My Polyester Theory

My polyester theory applies to many things.

Polyester is just a material, but why do the patterns and styles have to be the stupidest things ever. 

The polyester theory applies to Prius's too... just because they're economical, why do they have to be the crappiest looking cars... why does anything economical have to be shitty looking

The polyester theory.

Hyphenated Names

I don't get hyphenated names. Part of a marriage is giving yourself to another. Sure it's more the woman who has to do it more often than not, but here's more of what I don't get.

Bachelor/Bachelorette parties: why is it their "last day of being single!!!!" They were not single long before it even came to that point. And besides you still have the same opportunity to do what you want, it's just the morality level changes.

Back to hyphenated names. It's just so much more to write out, it's confusing and when you're a couple and married, you become ONE. The Smith's, The Davis's. You get married because your husband fell in love with who YOU are, not your name and your name should be dropped and his taken.

Or, just keep your own name. Don't hyphenate.

I saw this name today. Dr. McAnally-Dickey

Police find mess at Lindsay Lohan's house... um really!?

Wow, that was reported by People Magazine. Serious! what the hell...

I wonder which magazine I should contact to let them know about the mess in my house. Because I could use the publicity and money. Looks like anything will sell.

I miss...

Meeting friends at various malls: South Coast Plaza, Galleria, Del Amo

I miss meeting them for coffee, going to the beach, touring people in LA

I miss waking up and asking "hmm, amusement parks? beach? what do I want to do today?"

I miss driving an hour one way, sitting in traffic just for the hell of it

I miss LA/Hollywood/OC, driving from LA to OC to see friends for 20 min.

I miss driving from Southern Cali to Northern Cali and spending time with family.

I miss LA traffic. I miss goin to some independent tire shop and getting my tire fixed for $5

I miss the vanity, the hype.

Figuring it out...

I thought of something last night that probably won't make sense to a lot of people, but who cares. This is MY blog for MY thoughts.

I think the life I had in California is the one I would prefer over anything right now. I had a bestfriend, I knew where everything was, I had family, I had friends, I had limitless possibilities, I grew up in a great town, I really had a life I didn't need to or want to give up. But, sure I did. Living in St. Louis has taught me a lot and exposed me to a lot, but at the same time, I feel like a Palm tree uprooted from CA to live in FL. While it can belong in either place, it's still been uprooted.

I don't want what "was." But, I do realize that I need to be returned home.

When I look at myself now and compare it to the life I had, weigh the pro's/ cons, what I like, dislike, if I had to pick one moment to start life from here on out, it would be in California. There are people who like where they move and wouldn't change it and realize that's the life that's meant for them. This isn't for me. I do expect to return to California within 1-2 years. I was so close to returning this year, but now with the new job, I will get myself situated and then I can work from home anywhere. But, I just cannot see myself settling here... at least not now. It's just not for me.

At times, I think I would rather be alone and be near my family/friends/busy life because regardless, I'll be surrounded by love. I can commit to friends and family wholeheartedly instead of out of obligation, which I hate. I sometimes just feel that my life is meant to be there for others, alone, than to be there for 1 person for the rest of my life. Thanks Hollywood and thank you old-time traditions... We live in a time now where everyone has a chance to make the life they want.

Religion/Faith...

Regardless of who you believe in, I think the basic foundation of religion is surrender. Sure there's also faith and trust but it's mostly surrender. When we surrender, we make ourselves vulnerable long enough to trust something else to take our problems, stresses, fears, etc., just long enough to give us time to muster up the strength to deal with them when they are handed back to us.

As for faith and trust, imagine the fears, stresses, and thoughts you have on a daily basis that you feel like no one else could even begin to understand if you expressed it to them. We all would like to have someone we can off load our thoughts to, who can support us regardless. Who can motivate us, encourage us and not judge us.

Be it in the workplace, in the family, on a tour of an unknown terrain, we all want confident leaders whom we can trust blindly.

Religion is faith and trust with rules and guidelines.

My own thoughts, make your own.

Missing the Good old days

I was walking alone in the mall the other day and felt alone and sad.  While I've always been an emotionally strong and like being alone, especially with shopping, I couldn't help but feel sad that I wasn't aimlessly shopping with my mom or sisters.  I just felt so empty and so ripped from what I knew.  

I get sad on occasion and I try to remember the days that were.  But I don't necessarily want to go back to what was but I just want to be able to have it once in a while.  I have girls here and friends here but it's just not entirely what I am used to...

I miss seeing all my family, going over to their houses just because... seeing my cousin perform at gigs, seeing my friends in LA or OC... I've been living in St.Louis for 4 years now and I just cannot get used to this lifestyle.  I don't mind it, but just cannot accept it as "mine"

I miss a lot. I don't want to go back. I just want to get back on my path of life.